NUDE EYE & BOLD LIP

BEST SPENT NINE HOURS OF MY LIFE

im so in love with my hair <33

:D

OMG i soooo missed being on here, i will never neglect my blog again I PROMISE. I will be blogging about the same shit i always blog about as well as my hair since i went basically bald in 2010. Stay tuneddddddd

false hope

im not gonna lie, honestly i hope everyday that something foul happens to you, or you suffer,

today i spoke with God and I asked him to bring me strength, not someone new, not pain for you... but strength

strength to leave you alone

strength to move on

strength to stand on my own

strength to feel like i dont need you

shit will never be better

it goes in the same whirlwind pool

my life is like a fucking broken record

& ive come to except it

shit will never change, thats life

so umm

i feel like letting go
i feel like ive had too much
....i wanna feel like im not alone
i dont think ive met a single individual who has & still loves me completely
=/
i wanna walk a mile without wanting to cry
i try so hard with you but you dont give a fuck
so what am i to do ?

just FML

& if i were to die today..

i would at least be able to know what love feels like
id be able to say everything happens for a reason
but i wouldn't be able to let go of your heart
...i know our relationship has been more than complicated
but your the person that makes me jump, that embraces my flaws, & keep me going when i wanna give up
my words start to tangle when trying to explain my feelings
..but how long can i continue like this
constantly asking for apples but receiving oranges
i wanna be your everything, just like you are mine
i wanna give you butterflies again, i want you to grab my hips while i wrap my hands around you and intake your delightful scent
i just want the old us again..
...& if i were to die today id know what it feels like to lust for something
..to WANT something
to truly love someone...

& now i dont even know where to go

when a heart feels as empty as mine..where does one go
when a soul feels as as drained as mine where does ones sanity disappear to
how does one live in their skin knowing their the reason for their own unhappiness
how does one allow self inflected tears to drown them into misery
in which path do i follow when the path i drew for myself got me this lost , & it seems that there's no way out
how do i manage to breathe without every beat erupting with red rivers of sorrow & remorse
how is on suppose to love when seems like a mirage
who me hopeless? yes
who me pathetic? of course
who me depressed? without a doubt
whats left of my heart is not even to be describe as such, rather as a vein
a piece of something immature, undeveloped, deprived of nurture, ...nothing
time is the ultimate healing power & i humbly accept me defeat
to hopefully face my enemy, & stop this on going war
with love, with you, with myself

=)

guess the fuck what bitches
IM BACK ON THIS SHIT, LOL i hope i was missed
well then lets get caught up shall we?

-well as of today i ppl have came in (=D) & stepped out of my life(smh)..kinda personal cant be putting this shit on the net lol .
- i went supply shopping & got my cute lil binder from freshman year lol =)
& omg my locker i gunna be totally swanky..oh shit & i got a new journal
-i got a WHOLE new collection of nail polish =)
-permed this nappy ass hair
-OH shit did i mention that i was being stocked , YES smh its creepy
..been hanging out with the girls a lot also ( gosh i love them )..i mean we could be doing
absolutely nothing & have the best time
( the happy couple)

LOL..oh shit & now that my room is officially done ill be doing a tour soon lol
hmm well thats about it
ohhh & i have web cam now ..anyone wanna chat ? lol

yo =)

sooo my predicions for senior year in bumb ass randolph areeeee

DRAMA
DRAMA
STRESS
OH WAIT DID I SAY DRAMA

lol but im ready for it...got my mouth all loose =DD (reckless voice)

well as of today im supposed to perm this mop on my head
i have like the illest new growth
lmfaooo i look like harriet tubman right now

hmm dont you hate how when you first get a perm you can never get it the way you want?

NOTE OF THE DAY : i hate with a passion when people buy something from a certain store & then they think what they got on is popping just cuz its from that store -__- lame
ya know what i mean?

TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN

to all those who read & follow my blog i got news for you
UNLESS i directly say your name in my blog ( which i will do cuz idgaf)
...tehn dont come at me on some stupid shit talking about im attacking you
i write about whatever is on my mind and random shit that i think is relavent
DONT LIKE IT
then dont fucking visit my page
THANK YOU & GOOD FUCKING DAY