& if i were to die today..

i would at least be able to know what love feels like
id be able to say everything happens for a reason
but i wouldn't be able to let go of your heart
...i know our relationship has been more than complicated
but your the person that makes me jump, that embraces my flaws, & keep me going when i wanna give up
my words start to tangle when trying to explain my feelings
..but how long can i continue like this
constantly asking for apples but receiving oranges
i wanna be your everything, just like you are mine
i wanna give you butterflies again, i want you to grab my hips while i wrap my hands around you and intake your delightful scent
i just want the old us again..
...& if i were to die today id know what it feels like to lust for something
..to WANT something
to truly love someone...